Everything happens for a reason.
2015 is coming to an end, and, is so far one of the most epic years to date.
The people I crossed path with this year shaped my life is significant ways. 

The people I crossed path with this year filled my heart with new found purposes. 

The people I crossed path with this year, whether as confidents, part-time lovers or foes allowed me to reach my true potential.

I am immensely grateful cause I have met you. I really am, with all my heart and soul, and you might feel it as you read these words, don’t you? Cause I’m talking about you… Yes you! And I hope that makes you smile, or think, or tilt…

I am no longer afraid, scared, ashamed nor feeling awkward about my claims, as I have realized that we never know when things come to an end. When we have to say goodbye to great friends. So tell them, today, that you care…

#LiveYourTruth. #Everyday 



  I left room for warmth. Your Warmth. But you took too long to say what you meant, beat around the bush like a wild man, so randomness settled down.

Back to square one.

The spot, (cozy I might add), is taken for now and you will have to entertain… entertain my soul, spirit and senses, again, for their attention span is inversely proportional to your alertness.


#StraighForwardNess is Always the best policy in the matter of the heart. Of course the delivery must be Impeccable as it is what sets the tone (usually) for what’s to follow; however, all should be said. All could be said. All MUST be said… indeed…

Am I willing to wait until you get it? Who knows? Fast forward… Will you get it the next time you see me hand in hand with the one who got it… straight?

Pick my attention, now. Or live and learn for your next stunning encounter with potential Bliss.



I’m easily drifting towards the depth of the chiaroscuro, this in between state where things never really feel comfortable; this place where we tippy toe so to not disturb the still of the universe around.

My mind wanders as I get amazed about the grooves of the trees, the softness of the grass and the intricacy of our thought processes; beautifully ponders how the sun’s energy travels through space to purposely act upon everything it touches.

I’m aware that everything is connected and how we are all part of keeping the world homeostasis going on.

I understand how catalysts speed up processes which, would only unfold at minimal rate if not for them.

I constantly think about the past… and future… and how it intensely reflects and shapes on The Now – “The Now” we so profoundly experience with every inch of our consciousness, that we want it or not.

And, then we wait. We (Me, Myseld and I) patiently wait for Love to weave in between two breaths, and potently intoxicate our senses (again).

Until that time…



Isn’t it interesting how life can change so drastically in the space of a few months? How one year you are planning for future tense with someone and the next year you are just here, starting *fresh* cause there is literally nothing left but old pictures and fading memories.
You wonder what’s next cause you are stuck, in a sense… not physically, but spiritually, which is never a good thing. It’s certainly temporary (at least let’s hope), and you need to make some adjustments.

That’s also when *Friends* start moving differently around you cause your status changed. Some disappear cause they took his side, other are distant cause they don’t see you for who you really are; of course there are those who stick around, but somehow there is always a bit of judgement cause they assess the situation from an outsider standpoint. Seldom people come and hug you and tell you “everything is going to be ok”, when you are the one who leaves.

Matter of fact, I often wonder how different from who I really am people perceive me. Every time I am true to myself things seems like they get out of control. But maybe what I see as chaos are #LifeBitsFallingIntoPlace?

I do trust the process and I know the universe is looking after me; nonetheless, it does not mean I am immune to the pain and sorrow breakups carry.

Then life goes on, so future will mend the bruises and close the open wounds. All in time…

#OnLustAndLoveAndEverythingInBetween (part3)


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In logic and probability theory, two propositions (or events) are mutually exclusive or disjoint if they cannot both be true (occur).

Shall we treat Lust and Love as two distinct functions evolving in two separate systems, and how do they relate to Happiness? It sounds concurrently simple and complicated, hence the trickiness.

In a nutshell, there is the Lust and there is the Love… and for majority of my adult life I somehow misconceived their respective meanings as well as mishandled their applications. As these two ever-overlapping “concepts” wildly encompass a range of compelling feelings, and because they (may) relate and (may) interact with one another so closely, they would be difficult for me to comprehend fully, or even partially – for that matter; however, I feel that today, I took one step away from my initial cluelessness. 

It seems as Lust and Love feed into each other’s narrative. It seems as they share a common purpose.

Lust is straightforward, Lust is simple, and there is basically little that can be done about it: Lust assess how chemically compatible we are to someone, and how healthy would an eventual offspring be. Plain and simple and pragmatic. *Lust* solely relies on efficiency. 

Love is intricate, Love is sophisticated, and may or may not stem from Lust, but regardless where it originates, is build from the ground up. Love is potent and there is basically little that can be done about it. Love allows discrepancies to be efficiently taken care of – in case something goes down – aka imbalanced chemical compatibility. Love relies on the problem solving skills our elaborated brain cultivated, a defense mechanism we developed over time, for survival.

Lust and Love appear to be chemically induced for our species lastingness. They started mutually exclusive, and merged, inclusively, “byproducing” happiness.

So what if, what we have been lead to believe all along was flawed? What if happiness, as a purpose, was an illusion we created to rationalize our urges when in fact this is nothing but a bundle of chemical reactions… Not to say that a delusional state do not perfectly fit my desires, as this state is “inherent” to my human condition, and there is basically little that can be done about it;

Today, this right here makes total sense to me and ergo allows my soul to be soothed, and my heart to cope with whatever concerns is clouding my inner thoughts.

So, for what it’s worth, in a (my) perfect world, I will from now on use my brain to ponder if the situation is conducive to what matters most; I will, for now on, use my brain to estimate how a context can generate its highest yield of Long Term Happiness – for the latter turns out to be a convolution integrating a customizable blend of Lust and Love, and everything in between.


The way you talked to me makes it hard. It makes it hard to get involved with someone. 

What used to be easy became complicated.

You declared you did not expect a thing, but would give me the world… if I let you.

You affirmed someone will always love me. #Unconditionally. That it’s written all over me.

You whispered *that someone* will kiss the ground I walk on, hold my hand and rub my feet. #Gladly.

You raised the bar so high I’m afraid to look up. 

You raised the bar so high, I’m afraid to look down.

What was easy became complicated; yet, the mountains to climb are conducive to #delectation.

And even if these words turn out to be lies, I doubt the damage can be undone: you almost made me a believer.

#InLimbo #AlmostABeliever



I’m over sharing because, in reality who knows if we will ever meet or talk again? From that moment on anything can happen. 

Your next move is inconsequential for what matters is mine. Your next move is relevant only if it includes my heart being handled gently and respectfully.

I still care for reciprocity, although it takes the back seat. I still care to know your thoughts, although what’s important is for me to let it out, to let it know, to let it live.

The hardest part is to eloquently and accurately share my inner thoughts, even if many times simplicity alone works wonders.

Let me just hope that, overtime, the process will gradually get easier, and better and more enjoyable.

And I’ll just keep it real.



Amazingly enough, life happens again in the most interesting way possible. 

I matter; yet, I feel so insignificant sometimes. 

I matter; yet, I feel like silence carries its weight so heavily on my shoulder it makes me bend over. 

Uneasiness rips my soul into pieces and make me reconsider how things should be handled or rather left alone.

I smile but catch the subtleties of life more efficiently than you’d ever know. But you’d never know. Well I guess, now you know…




Soft and sweet.

I reminisce the Brightness of the morning.

I reminisce the Taste of drunk kisses.

I reminisce the Thrill of sleepless nights.

I reminisce the Strength of my desire.

I reminisce the Warmth of Your breath.

I reminisce the tender caress.

I reminisce the Scent of your face.

I reminisce your hands through my hair.

I reminisce you calling my name.

I reminisce how it feels like.
I reminisce how it feels like.

I reminisce… How good it feels.

For now.






It’s interesting how one simple action can have phenomenal traction; how one silly little thing can affect one’s heart.


Let’s not underestimate our power and how Well (or not so well) we fit into our surroundings: how fast the planet turns and how its moon revolution pulls and pushes the seas and all water based bodies.
Let’s not underestimate how small entities such as hormones regent our behaviors and our functionality.

Let’s not underestimate the strength of our thoughts and the potential of our soul to connect with one another, even in great distances.

Ironically, today – I feel so weak, yet so strong. I guess it all depend on how you look at it…

In the end, all we need to do is Believe this is real, cause it is, indeed, #Real.




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