#LoveAndLustAndEverythingInBetween (Part2)

I can honestly say that these past couple of weeks I fell in lust again with myself.

It is odd when you finally realize that your flaws are what make you special, that the imperfections add un je ne sais quoi to the craft: you mature into a butterfly.

By discovering your power as a woman you declare yourself to the world and this is the most beautiful thing that can happen to you, and those around you: it makes us confident; and being confident not only alters the way you perceive yourself but also changes everything.

It completely shifts the energy around when you enter the room, it is a powerful tide shambling strangers’ blood, it is enlivening for those who are watching (you included).

Once your eyes are open, there is no coming back; however, be aware that your light will scare away those who benefited from your previous blindness, so don’t let them dim your light, rain on your parade!

Keep radiating, embracing your true self and encourage your sisters around you to do the same.

On the verge of my 35th birthday, I finally grasp it, and I don’t think I will ever let it go…

#WhenInDoubt

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I think it is best to inquire before jumping to conclusions too hastily and avoid damaging any type of friendships. In the past, I have too many times did or say things that have altered my confidence and hurt  the relationships with people who were very close to me.

Lately, I have found a way to clear my head: I write down my thoughts and often ask the universe to give me what I want. Of course, She is the boss and knows what’s best for me, so if it is right – she is providing.

It allows me to approach life with a different perspective and procures me with a sense of calm I don’t remember experiencing before: my only job now is to be honest with others and myself and when faced with love, rejection or indifference, I know that, in the long run the process She should be trusted. That is when, eventually, doubts and hesitations will manifest less often.

We all have a purpose, and I feel that the more we apply pressure on life the hardest is to find our calling on time to fulfill the latter. I feel I am just right where I am to be. No doubt here.

Short Update.

For the past month I have been sleep deprived and expectedly it has clouded my judgment and nudged my inner balance; and because of all the life changing events presently occurring it has been challenging.

Although I am still experiencing anxiety, and I am extremely tired, these past couple of days I felt a deep calm within me. Months ago I asked the universe for a few things, I actually wrote them down, and amazingly enough, they are becoming reality. I am not a religious person, but I believe in homeostasis, some call it Karma and how– we, as part of the universe – have an amazing untapped power.

As things are falling into place pretty awesomely, (just like I had asked the universe) I wanted to share with you a non-exhaustive list I believe helped me to make my desires concrete:

  1. Be as specific and intentional as you can be – if it is what you really want (months, date, names, locations…), do not live room for doubt, and be ready to receive.
  2. Be cautious of what you are asking for because it will materialize.
  3. Do not be afraid.
  4. Be grateful and share your story as inspiration, but keep it for those who asked for it.
  5. Keep unsolicited advice for yourself.

So that is it for this short update… Until next time

I deactivated my Instagram and Facebook for a little, but Twitter is still in service @W_RECB.

#AboutTrustingMyGut

  I woke up clear headed.

I think that once I’ll intentionally position myself for success and truly accept that failure is part of the growth process, I’ll be blessed with those things I’ve been longing for.

Although I acknowledge the latter (failure as the best thing that can happen to me), what has prevented me from fully accepting it is my fear of rejection and unwillingness to listen to my feelings.

I usually do so because I distrust my emotions and constantly challenge my instinct, that I consider fallible – when it’s in fact probably the most accurately unbiased tool I have at my disposition  – and I should use it.

Yet, I am quick to run my mouth and ask my friends why they think things are one way or the other, when I already know* why, just so to introduce perspectives fitting the narrative I’d like to see unfold.

Well, as cliché as it sounds, actions always speak louder than words, the intentions hardly matter and we do not always get what we want.

Bottom line, when you feel unsettled, trust your gut, always.

Today, I woke up clear headed and I have decided to accept that everyone in my life has a defined purpose and once that purpose has been fulfilled it’s ok to let go. The quicker I’ll do so, the closer I’ll be from all those things I have been longing for.  

Daphné 2.0

Life is complex. But does it have to be?

I have a hard time to find a balance between straightforwardness, which can sound harsh (and make people feel uncomfortable), and sugarcoating my words. I really admire and look up to those who can confidently manage both qualities simultaneously, without sounding passive-aggressive.

Although I grew a lot as an individual these past couple of years and I am still in the process of becoming the woman I have always meant to be, I still struggle with these two, and feel as I still have a long way to go.

Over the years I have evolved: I used to be fearless and opinionated, then I became afraid and perplexed about the world. I *toned down* which is not necessarily a bad thing, I guess, yet I had become so subdued that the day of my shift of consciousness those around who had never really experienced me that way were rather surprised, to say the least… It is their life tho, they need to deal with that *ish on their own time; Long story short: I understand the rules a little better and somehow have the self-restrain I lacked in the past (allegedly); needless to say that I am better version of my former self.

July 2015 has been so far one of the most stressful month this year, which is ok, as I tend to perform best during highly challenging times. I just hope I will get the chance to exhale, because I have been waiting to do so for quite some time now. *I feel like it is coming*.

Life is complex. But does it have to be? I guess it does, until you finally accept your boundlessness.

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#OnLustLoveAndEverythingInBetween (Part1)

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I sometimes wonder if I will ever fall in Love again.

Some days it is obvious I will, others I doubt it very much.

Let me reiterate: I wonder if, one day, I will fall into this reciprocated Love that feels so good that nothing seems* to matter anymore, at least for a while. That Lust that overrides everything and shields you from all the negative clouds coming your way. That astounding pleasure that lingers down your belly, tickling butterflies…  exhilarating, intoxicating, inspiring, rush of Oxytocin… Pretty dope, pretty sweet. A parallel world where shades of blue superpose and intertwine into an undulating ocean of softness and where each breath ends in a sigh…Ooo… Can you taste the rainbow yet?

Anyway, if you feel I am delusional or too romantic: #BlameItOnMaxwell not on me… I trust that the universe will provide me with what I need, when I will need it the most. All I want is a piece of that bliss…
Love Jones

#OnLustLoveAndEverythingInBetween (Poem)

I sometimes wonder if

I will fall in Love again.

This reciprocated Love

So good nothing seems* to matter anymore

That Lust that overrides everything

Encompasses your soul with thrills

Shields you from dark clouds

Astounding pleasure lingering down, tickling butterflies…

Exhilarating, intoxicating, inspiring, rush of Oxytocin

Pretty dope, pretty sweet.

A parallel world where shades of blue superpose

Intertwine into an undulating ocean of softness

Where each breath ends in a sigh.

All I want is a piece of that bliss…

#IfGodExists

If God exists

She won’t mind me questioning her existence.

 

If God exists

She is just waiting on my next move.

 

If God exists

She is unapologetically fierce and beautifully honest.

 

If God exists

She loves purposely and accepts unconditionally.

 

She forgives and understand.

She accordingly provides.

She never doubts and she believes.

She judge not and always allows me to wonder if she exists.

Disclaimer: my ideas and opinions are subjected to change as I go through this beautiful thing we call life. You can help me shape my ideas by commenting and sharing your own perspective, as long as it is done in a respectful manner. I am looking forward to hearing from you!

#ThePowerOfSymmetry

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#ThePowerOfSymmetry

I was called beautiful twice in the space of a week.
It came from two different individuals, and under two very different circumstances:
The first time was sweetly whispered and unexpected in that way, definitely validating. It warmed every inches of my body. I *think* it was genuine and I greeted the compliment by a thank you. I understood the process: these words had come through special lenses, visual cues and other senses that transcended physicality.
The second time, was different. It was almost if, I were to blame for it. Hostile encounter where I had to explain how uncomfortable it could make me feel to be described as such.
It is indeed complicated: I do think that I fit a certain standard of attractiveness, which means that depending on which angle you are coming from, I may (or may not) look enticing. I am not meant to move everybody, (like Ruby Rose, what a relief) and I am at peace with that. I acknowledge the power of symmetry, biologically – as our body’s survival instinct, strongly reacts, at a chemical level, to those who might be a compatible match to produce healthy offspring. Of course, there are many other factors involved in “choosing” and “picking” but I am starting to wonder how much free will we have when it comes to that type of things. How much, if we stick to a primitive approach, can we deny the power of symmetry?

Well, I can only talk for myself when I say that I view it as a potent force, a catalyst for relationships and all the things in between.

I was called beautiful twice in the space of a week. Actually, it happened a third time between when I started to write and finished this post. I don’t really know why things happen the way they do, and maybe never will, but i know that in the end it will all make sense.

#Catharsis

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Magic occurs when you stop judging yourself,

When you allow your flaws to be seen

Vulnerability to exist.

Shame will hinder everything

Paralyze you to your core

Cut the grass under your feet:

Don’t let it have the last word.

I was born free-spirited

But that spirit was stolen by boundaries and conventions.

I was born unchained

But was taught that I should wear shackles so I could fit in.

Today I woke up crying

but my tears were cathartic:

I have been lying to the world,

and to myself.

But the universe knows

And she’s forgiven.

Who am I not to grant her wish?

I accepted

And did the same.

#AboutPatience

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Disclaimer: my ideas and opinions are subjected to change as I go through this beautiful thing we call life. You can help me shape my ideas by commenting and sharing your own perspective, as long as it is done in a respectful manner. I am looking forward to hearing from you!

#AboutPatience

Every time I felt challenged, I got extremely overwhelmed. Although my life might appear unorthodox for some people, I have been living very comfortable and cautious existence. Here’s the problem: nobody has ever reached the sky by being safe, and the sky is all I’ve been longing for. I’ve been meaning to explore this one precious gift of a life to its fullest, but was from early infused with fears and doubts. Having a strong support system is really a blessing, I think, even if some succeed without. I claim that I am aware of my privileges, yet I can’t help but complaining about things that I can easily change, or rather, things I think I can easily change, as if, maybe, there were forces that are stronger than we might admit. As if, even with all the purpose in the world, there were energies that are way more potent that we want to give them credit for? I have this strong belief that in the end it will all make sense. It is how I am able to get up every day and keep going, despite the headaches, the heartaches, disappointment and the shame.

Meanwhile, I am being patient.

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