Diem Perdidi

written 01/23/2013

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The pesky sound on bald walls bounces, pulling her out

The rabbit hole she would have loved to spend the day.

There he is, striking a pose, majestic and proud,

 

Waiting on her next move, alert, carried away,

Purring louder than cicadas under hot sun.

She acknowledges his presence, so he slips away.

 

Now, her steps he precedes all the way to the kitchen:

Her heart he knows is wrapped around his little paws!

On her bare feet, he jumps, initiating fun…

 

But time is running out and the sun’s heading west

Faster than hungry lions hounding a gazelle.

She does not like her job, though tries to do her best;

 

Ultimately, ends up leafing through her new Elle

Magazine. She doesn’t even read the captions,

Instead studies models’ perfect figures: she dwells. 

 

She yearns to become the center of attention,

Out-of-reach beauty standards set by society,

While deep inside she longs for appreciation

Slowly exasperates deep insecurities.

What is a girl to do among fair goddesses?

Maybe there are details she might have overseen?

Deep down inside there are issues she must address:

Is superficiality more important than

Women’s souls, discounted by the freedom of the press?

 

It’s 5 o’clock: no time to think, just time to thank

The Universe, and forget how imperfect she is.

Gin and tonic tonight will numb her aching brain,

And maybe distract her from things she thinks she missed.

Back home, she lies in bed and snakes between the sheets

Without even undress, in her clothes she will sleep.

She drifts off in second, don’t even count sheep.

Decelerated dive down in her rabbit hole,

Another worthless day: a diem perdidi –

Unable to be claimed nor remembered, that is for sure.

 

#OntoSthng Part2

You know you are #OntoSthng when you walk away from something that may have felt REALreal good, at first – But your gut told you it will do more damage to your ego than anything else

hmm hmm…

#OntoSthng part2

#ForAllIntentsAndPurposes

I am thrilled by the thought
Of getting closer
To You
Even tho
#ForAllIntentsAndPurposes
Distance is best

I am thrilled by the thought
Of addressing
You
Even tho
#ForAllIntentsAndPurposes
Silence is best

I am thrilled by the thought
Of sharing fluids
With You
Even tho
#ForAllIntentsAndPurposes
Virtuality is best

I am thrilled
By early morning thoughts
Of You
Warmly rushing through me
Soft and easy

It does the trick
#ForAllIntentsAndPurposes

©️ Daphné Mia Essiet, 2018

#MyMissionStatement

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Textured and imperfect
An unlikely blend of spices and scent
A delectable lack of comfort
Enticing of some sort

Can’t really be placed
Or even replaced
by familiarity

Will borrow your breath
Gently let you rest
But just for a sec
Get used to it.

I write
to resolve the tensions
My sensible soul has created
From so much uncertainties

& soothe those
who can relate to
My hopes, fears and dreams

#MyMissionStatement

©️ Daphné Mia Essiet, 2018

#KissAndMakeUp

There is something to be said about
The way you think of others
The way you feel about them
It teaches you about yourself

Your insecurities & soft spots
Your biaises & blind spots
Are you aware of
Your Priviledge and whatnot?

Perfection has never been a requirement for Love
Being loved
Or Self-worth

So cheer up and give yourself a break
It’s time to #KissAndMakeUp with yourself

©️ Daphne Mia Essiet, 2018

#RealTalk

Regardless of how painful they may be
The quicker you can find a way to turn your trauma and hardships into learning experiences
The sooner you will be able to enjoy your life at its fullest

#RealTalk

©️ Daphne Mia Essiet, 2018