I don’t know why we feel the need to set goals or reflect on the past specifically on our birthdays/beginning of the year etc…
I usually don’t wait for these milestones but today I felt the urge to let it out – at least let out a little bit of it, right here. Another year has passed and my birthday is here.
I feel grateful to be alive and well, to have roof over my head, food in my plate and be able to share whenever I have spare.
I can also say that I’m *Wiser and Woke as Ever* – which is something I’m proud of.
That said, as our human condition calls for, I also have to deal with my own demons;
And by that I mean spending time analyzing the root of it all – and moving forward despite the occasional lows.
I recognize my greatness, I do, which does not shield me from setbacks and disappointments… but one thing I have learnt along the way is that everything truly happen for a reasons and in time I will look back and contemplate #TheIronies.
Pains and heartaches are a necessary part of growth, and are meant to be fully acknowledged, then “shaken off” – for survival purpose, that is.
Lately, loneliness has haunted me more often than I’d like to: it is mild and temporary; nonetheless present.
Don’t get me wrong I do enjoy my “aloneness”, my “Me time”- those are specifically designed to enhance togetherness.
Loneliness is different, more intricate.
Loneliness is this crippling feeling you experience when *you think* the ones you care about fail to get you.
Loneliness makes you feel like you are inadequate and as a result you are uncomfortable facing others.
Loneliness is that space between who you are and what you think they think of you (which is different from what *they* actually think, anyway)
Loneliness is disconnect.
but then again, everything truly happens for a reason and in time I will look back and contemplate #TheIronies.
That’s how She works. the Universe…
©️ Daphne Mia Essiet, 2016