I woke up clear headed.
I think that once I’ll intentionally position myself for success and truly accept that failure is part of the growth process, I’ll be blessed with those things I’ve been longing for.
Although I acknowledge the latter (failure as the best thing that can happen to me), what has prevented me from fully accepting it is my fear of rejection and unwillingness to listen to my feelings.
I usually do so because I distrust my emotions and constantly challenge my instinct, that I consider fallible – when it’s in fact probably the most accurately unbiased tool I have at my disposition – and I should use it.
Yet, I am quick to run my mouth and ask my friends why they think things are one way or the other, when I already know* why, just so to introduce perspectives fitting the narrative I’d like to see unfold.
Well, as cliché as it sounds, actions always speak louder than words, the intentions hardly matter and we do not always get what we want.
Bottom line, when you feel unsettled, trust your gut, Always.
Today, I woke up clear headed and I have decided to accept that everyone in my life has a defined purpose and once that purpose has been fulfilled it’s ok to let go. The quicker I’ll do so, the closer I’ll be from all those things I have been longing for.
©️ Daphne Mia Essiet, 2015