#Momentum

Shit’s complicated- but here we are: making the best of it.

Beating the odds
Breaking records we never knew existed
Yet, too often living with restraint
Tipi toeing around fragile egos.

Their subconsciously know that the Power sipping through our pores must
meticulously get washed away by judgement
& ever so slightly policed, err’day
With diligence – to prevent Impetus to propels us so Fast & Furiously

As our brightness will challenge Black Holes –
And more.

#Momentum

©️ Daphne Mia Essiet, 2018

#HaveYouClaimedYourQueendom?

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Have you? If not, you should. Easier said than done, I know…

I believe that the most effective way to change the world for the better is to finally acknowledge and empower women the way they should always have been. Last week I was told I had a Queen Complex. I was told I had a #QueenComplex because I believe that I should be treated like I am special. But (in my mind) I do think I am, and I also believe that all my sisters out there are. Call me vain, full of myself or even over-confident; however, the reality is that I allow myself to be out of my comfort zone and live my truth. I still feel insecure and inadequate, but not because I am being judged by others. I feel insecure and inadequate simply because it takes a moment to adjust to newness.

I will admit that over the years I have made mistakes: I have lied and manipulated. I have used, judged and disregarded others’ feelings. I have even been conniving, spoke hurtful words and was unfair to those who loved me most; and this was the kind version to the things I inflicted to myself. The pain flourishing in my womb quickly encompassed my heart and blazed those who dare to come too close. Numbness had me unable to feel pleasure even from the most delectable gifts life was offering.

Then one day, the Shift of Consciousness occurred when a little angel reminded me that Queens love themselves regardless of circumstances and radiate that love so others can feel the softness of their touch, the warmth of their breath, the solace in their words like a tender caress. Queens rise up and lead, and fill their higher purpose. Queens don’t let shame paralyze them. Interestingly enough, it was not the first time this angel had come to me, but this time I decided to listen because I felt ready.

Unfortunately, as women, we face so many challenges, starting with ourselves; challenges influenced by society, our peers/family, the media and everything in between. Again, I consider that all women have this innate untapped super power, which in most occurrences we regrettably fail to recognize, and are totally unaware of how potent it is. Hence, most of us live our entire lives consumed by this unreleased verve.

My wish is for the future is to unleash the full potential that reside in every Queen out there, to nurture, inspire, uplift and support their spirit with love and compassion.

Have you claimed your Queendom yet?
I hope those words will hearten your soul and motivate you to do so.
Most importantly, be gentle to yourself.

©️ Daphne Mia Essiet, 2015

#NeverEnough?

I never feel like I’m enough. I used to be an avid reader growing up and although I still read regularly there are so many others books to be read, so many authors I don’t even know about.

I graduated last September. My studies were as challenging than rewarding and I am so grateful I have learnt so much. I belong to the “privileged”; it also made me realize how little I know about virtually every topic I can think of.

I admire eloquence and wit of those consistent souls who have goals and reach them. I, myself, am well intentioned and constantly plan ahead, “list” in an attempt to get things done and better myself— and fall [so] short.

I know that hard work is #always rewarded, eventually, that repetition bring us closer to “perfection” and one can do everything they put their my mind to, yet I easily get overwhelmed and systematically experience staggering stage fright. I resent judgment so much that I hide my weaknesses with assurance and stare at my fears right in the eyes without ever turning my back as I’m afraid it would stab me.

Can it be that there are too many books to read, or too much knowledge available to be versed in all of them? Definitely so!!!! I should see this as a quality: it forces me to do better. So why do I never feel like I am enough? Why are these wicked insecurities crawling under my feet and meddling through the cracks [any cracks] show up at the most inopportune times? I guess that no matter how prepared I think I am I should make peace with it and get used to it. Meanwhile, the struggle continues…

©️ Daphne Mia Essiet, 2015